The Man In My Heart

Bismillahirrahmanirrahhim

I had a migraine today, perhaps today is my bad day!!

I spent almost one month’s weekends doing my assignments at my mahalah(room) and library. 0ooo, boringnye!! That what my friends said when they knew I’m just stay at my beloved university (haha,sayang la sangat) and do the most “boring activity” (according to them la).

Frankly speaking, I believe, we are the one who determine our life, we are the one who create the boringness (is that correct? Haha). For me, boring is a subjective word, it can be defined with various meanings according to different people. Some people who dislike spend their days at library would think it is boring activity during weekend. But some people might say shopping is boring because they believe they wouldn’t get any benefits by doing that activity. It proven how different people are and we should proud that we are born to be unique with different thinking style and various attitudes.

Actually, I would like to dedicate this entry to my father…..

I’m thinking to write an entry to my father ( Even though he didn’t mention to me, I know he always read my blog) after I rearranged my study plan for next semester. Actually, my father did not really agree with me after he knew I chose Political Sciences as my major course. Let me tell u my story, it begin when I was at CENFOS IIUM (Centre for Foundation Studies), he kept asked me to change my course (Human Science) to law. But, I refute to listen to him because I’m the most stubborn child among his children. I always think parent is selfish because they never listen to their children; they have the power of veto and arrange my life based on their interest without think about my feeling. But everything was changed after one conversation through phone with my mother. My mom called me and told me, Abah’s ambition is want to train me to become a lawyer, he want to teach me how to behave in the court, how to handle cases, and etc. I’m not really done my best for my previous semester because some certain reasons, I’m afraid to inform Abah because I think Abah would blame me. So, I just sms and let he know my result after he sent me back to Uia. Then, Abah told me, being a social sciences student is not easy because I need to read so many books and cannot rely on my textbook only. I know Social Sciences or Human Sciences are dealing with people’s behavior and I can never get the accurate and formula like sciences subject. In order to understand the society, I need to do a lot of observations and read a lot of books so I can study the history and the attitudes of previous people.

People might think I’m crazy because I’m planning to do double degrees. Yeah, I know it is not an easy task. When I told Abah about my plan, he also said the same things like other people said, he asked me to choose between Political Sciences and Law. It can never be like that, ever!!. I told Abah I will never give up and let my ambition go. If he really wants me to become a lawyer then he need to wait until I finish my degree first, then I will fulfill his wish. (Sound cruel right?) Actually, it wouldn’t take long time, because I’m thinking to declare my minor next semester. At least, I’m going to do law for minor, and at least there is the word “law” in my scroll. (haha) After all, I want to mention that I really love my abah (I really mean it), it is not just because we have same thinking, same interest and same attitude (ego), and it is really not because he is my best tutor for my political sciences subject. Owh my God!! I blur and I can’t even think about the reasons why I really love my abah, may be because I’m born to be his daughter, and he is the only man that know hundred percent about me. One more thing, I remembered my sister said to me last year, abah was really nervous, and he was almost crying when I faint because of low blood pressure. (haha, can u imaging that!! abah is almost want to cry, even me myself  I never see my abah cry. how ego he is, rite?.)

Last but not least, for my abah:

Don’t give up for being my private tutor

Keep calling me every day, so I can ask u many things that I’m not really understand. (yeah, I’m a bit LAMPI actually)

Even though I’m not a law student as you wish, I’m still your stubborn daughter. (Just be patient, and pray so that ur dream can be fulfilled)

Keep practice on “Akad nikah” for my wedding.(I demand abah to be the person who “akad nikah” (what we call it,I dun know how to describe it but it is something like abah is the one who will shake hand with his son in law, so he can know how nervous my husband to be is..haha)

I love you, mmuah..!!